land on the ground

washin' my hands of attachments

birds pass by

to tell me that I'm not alone

it reminds me of walking through the avenues

if you doubt that i'll be there

we were meant to sleep in the dirt

daylight

you say everything has changed

i never said it always stays the same

i'll take you over if you let me

unless you

i cannot

better off

and cry

get off my bed

never forget

wiped my tears

you held my hand

ach í a labhairt amach le cion

tá ár tseoid fhéin a'inn

i looked up at you

and without pause, knew at once 

that you, you were me

in san domhan

dár dtír bheag álainn

's muid ag lorg ár n- áit

as I suffocate myself
I remember the marks the police thought you left on me
the disbelieving look the Hispanic female officer gave
you, pulled away from me, by the sidewalk
in handcuffs
between those two men
and I stop

fuck it
I messed up the insides of my arms

had never cut there before
they were clear

for the rest of my life

of the white white stairs

of the flight

from the top

your heart, it holds more

into the marrow

you'll never have nowhere to go

deep down dyed

look at this silver and gold

we've so many days spent beside

shook through

shook through a tangle of thorns

i don't feel like i'm falling

i'm up against the sky

break your neck to keep your chin up

down to your neck

everyone in it

play out in your head

sat still as a rose

a new day froze

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